Firstly, thank you to everyone who posted birthday wishes, it was much appreciated
Now, personal things that I rarely tell people I encounter in real life but somehow feel comfortable talking about with my fellow deviant artists.
So, I just celebrated my 21st birthday, which is insanely surreal. Now, most 21 year olds celebrating their birthday will do so at a bar hanging out with their friends. I did not. I spent the day of my birthday speaking with a psychiatrist, the afternoon on a train going from Massachusetts (where my parents are) back to brooklyn, and the evening worrying about Irrational fears. However, i did get the sweetest welcome back from my boyfriend. So, as you all may or may not know, I've been going through a lot right now with my anxiety and panic disorder. I was just prescribed new medication and I hope it helps me getting better. I feel sad that I would like to have gone out to a quiet bar for my birthday but I am unable to right now. It's very discouraging and I can't help but get frustrated with myself thinking why can't I just get better, what's wrong with me? I just want to wake up everyday without panic and without anxiety and have the ability to go out of the house without having a panic attack and live my life without fear and worry. I hope to get better soon, but the positive is that I have more time to devote to my art and illustration. Thank you all for listening
Love,
Ari